I walk around with a smile on my face all day, but inside im frowning and wishing you would understand. I give you a friendly hug, and I remember when those hugs meant something more to you. I pretend to like this new girl, but I hate her. She took you away from me and now I want to die. I cant compare to her because shes so beautiful. Shes your everything and shes as close to perfect as it gets. So, while you think we’re still good friends, ill be crying every night. You might think im happy, but im not going to be ok
You know, I don’t think I’ll ever be happy. Wherever I am, I’ll wish I’m somewhere else. Whatever I have, I’ll want something different.
Smile and make you think I’m happy
I talk and make you think I love me
I laugh, so you don’t see me cry
I look at you and hide the pain inside
I feel myself dying but you see me survive

I didn’t wanna be that girl that cries herself to sleep…
You're everything I never knew I always wanted
The pain is there to remind me that I'm still alive

Behind this smile is everything you'll never understand
Smile. It's easier than explaining why you're sad
I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get through anything, but inside I'm fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering

I thought somebody would notice, I thought somebody would say something…

I could pretend that I’m not dying inside, but just so you know... I am.
As we grow older, it gets harder to believe. It’s not that we don’t want to but too much has happened and we can’t.
Don’t fall into the trap of pretending everything is okay when you know it’s not.
You wanna know what the truth is? I still love you...and I probably will love you for a very long time...but I cant just be your buddy because as much as I enjoy the concept of being "just friends" in reality its a bizarre form of torture and I'm just not willing to participate in it..so right now what I wanna do is just move on and get over you....and the only way for me to do that is to be not around you anymore...

It’s been hard to watch someone i love change before my eyes and know i can’t do anything about it. But it’s really sad to remember the way we once were...and how we could have been
I wanted to tell him that I would never be sorry for loving him. That in a way I still do - that maybe I will always do. I'll never regret one single thing we did together because what we had was special. Maybe if we were ten years older it would have worked out differently. Maybe, I think, it's just that I’m not ready for forever...
You're everything I've wanted. You're beautiful. You're reckless. And a little sad. You know it's the sadness that got me right from the start. I wanted to make it go away, and for a time I thought I had. It's pretty stupid, huh? You like the sadness. You cling to it, and in the end it will be all you have.
I cant stop crying... I dont understand, and its not the loud, screaming crying... Its just the tears continuously roll down my face, and I can't do anything to stop them I thought by meeting this new guy, talking to this guy on the phone all night, and looking forward to seeing HIS face everyday... it would make me stop wanting you. That wasn't the case at all, instead, when I talked to this guy, or when I looked at this guy... all I wanted in the whole world was for it to be you
you know that girl who is always lost? the one with the pretty smile that no one could tell is fake? that girl who seems to be so strong, but daily continues to break? you know, that girl who is always there and seems to have no problems of her own? the one who holds back tears until you are off the phone? that girl who is in love with a boy who tries to understand. that girl who if you reach out always pulls back her hand? well, what a lonely life, what a sad girl she must be, maybe you didn't realize it but that girl is me..
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down, probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back...
If you don't understand my silence... You'll never understand my words
I guess to some extent, you get used to being alone. You get used to not expecting phone calls & having nothing to do at night. You don’t expect to turn around to open arms any longer. The small sounds of him have been replaced by silence. Your thoughts echo through your head, with no one to share them with. All in all, being alone isn’t terrible, it just hurts like hell…
When you finally realize that you didn't matter at all to someone, you begin to wonder if you ever mattered to anyone
The only guy that deserves you.. is the one that thinks he doesn't. the one that'll stick by your side.. no matter how much you mess up. and the one who will forgive you.. mistake after mistake..
To put it simply, I want to be someone's everything…
I am so scared ... scared that I wont ever love anyone like this, that I wont ever find someone who can make me feel so complete yet at the same time be the one who's leaving me feeling lifeless... And you'll never know how it feels to have the one person who means everything to you -make you feel like nothing
Please know that the smile on my face when you are holding her is just as fake as the 'I love you's you said to me when I was yours
Good-bye's make you think. They make you realize what you've had and what you've lost, and what you've taken for granted.
Do you know why I hate myself? I’m selfish, lonely, insecure, annoying,and bitchy, but the main reason I hate myself is because I am me.
Even though I loved you so much, I just couldn't deal with the pain. And, the times we spent together, holding each other, were the best times of my life. But no matter how much I wanted to keep you in my arms, I couldn't. I couldn't hold on to you, knowing that all you were going to do was hurt me. But right now, even though I still love you, I don't need you anymore. I don't need you to complete me. I just need you to comfort me when I'm sad, support me, and listen to me when I talk. So, I guess what I'm saying is, I'm glad we're over. I'm glad I've let go I can cry a million tears, but you'll never see my frown. I'll whisper your name one thousand times, but you'll never hear a sound.
I miss you. not enough to want you back, just enough for it to hurt
Maybe I was just a stepping stone for you to get to that point in your life where you'd figure out what you wanted, or didn't want... So to prove to you that I love you and all I want is for you to be happy, I'll walk away..
Promise me that's all I want. Just a promise that you will never forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you will always remember me. Losing you was hard enough, but I don't want to live knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them.
I feel like one of those people who is so miserable that they can't be around normal people, like I'll infect the happy people
A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.
Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop
Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us on the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired. We are scared. Denying it doesn’t change the truth. Sooner or later, we have to put aside our denial and face the world, head on, guns blazing. Denial. It’s not just a river in Egypt. It’s a freakin’ ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?
But as human beings, sometimes it's better to stay in the dark, because in the dark there may be fear, but there's also hope
Well the tears are starting to slow down. but the pain, however, remains constant.

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