Because while Im fighting myself by myself
And you are still standing beside me
I feel like you will never understand
And I will never expect you to because Im too complicated.

I will never reveal my true self to you
Because you could never revive my soul
Or fill the void Ive let you create in my heart
While I slowly have come to realize that you like it there.

And I really understand love now
Because Ive been through everything with you
and you taught me everything there is to know about it
and you taught me how it really feels to hurt.

I have come to be your vulnerable fool
That begs for your return every time you walk away
From my unrequited love and my words of hope
That I scream to you whenever you say you hate me.

You push me farther and farther away
while letting me find my save haven in your arms
That provide me with false security
and it lets me hold on to what once was for another few minutes.

And you make me hate myself
For who I am and what we have become
and for letting you use my body like you do
But I like it when you make me feel special.

I make feeble attempts to get your attention
But you never cast a glance my way
You only laugh at how you can treat me so badly
And I still run, run, run back to you.

Then I listen to you say you dont care about me
and I laugh like youre joking around
then I let you pull the wool over my eyes
so I can remain stable enough to remain living

And they all ask me why Im still with you
when you constantly bring me down
but they dont understand that I let you do it
so I have some reason to wake up.

7/17/2006 8:46:57 AM

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